Okay, you've got a lot of good feedback in this thread. I believe as long as you have a B+ or higher average in any given year you've excelled at law school.
But I want to talk about the point I've quoted you on above. The fellow with the picture of his grades. Keep in mind some people are very deviant, and that it takes less than one minute to fabricate a "picture" of grades that cannot be distinguished from the real deal.
Assuming you are in Ontario, have you contacted the Member Assistance Program? It's a great way to speak with someone about your issues and get counselling and access to professional resources. https://homeweb.ca/map
Our CDO told us last year that optional references letters really does mean optional reference letters. I’m not sure why that would have changed this year since all 1Ls will have one semester’s worth of grades.