Hi all, before anyone says anything, I'm unfortunately aware of the stigma surrounding Canadians who go abroad to study law and then come back. That was never my plan and I'm still trying my best to stay in the UK.
Very long story short: I've been among the top in my class throughout the program, participated in several workshops and earned certificates/qualifications to stand out, progressed so far into the hiring process for a niche* area of law only to be rejected so close to the end. Of course they all give the same reply, "we don't have the time to tell you why etc etc", but I managed to get a response from one of the firms. They flat out told me I was a very good fit for their training contract but they don't want to sponsor my visa because of the "financial situation the pandemic has put them in". My student visa will expire at the end of the summer and I'll be forced to travel back home and work twice as hard, if not more, to find my footing. I haven't touched my books in 2 weeks. I developed insomnia, I don't eat, and I don't even want to finish the semester anymore. 2 months away from graduating and it was all just pointless. I'm sure a lot of law students are in the same position right now but the fact that I'll have to go back home and face the stigma after all the hard work I've poured into the degree crushes my spirit. I was so proud of my accomplishments but now all I feel is anxiety and shame (idk why I feel shame tbh).
I don't know where to look for guidance. I don't know whether I should move back to Canada and go through the hassle and the stigma to be licensed or not. I'm contemplating Osgoode's International Business Law but I don't have experience to be able to specialise (which is something I wanted to do after being in the field first) Also, academia does interest me a bit and I hope to teach at the university level in the future. The beginning of my career was right there almost within reach and it got yanked away. I don't know what to do. I feel like I'm running out of time and I don't know where to look for help because I didn't foresee a damn pandemic standing between me and my goal.
*integrating AI into the legal sector (banking and finance, broadly speaking).