Given that it's mental health awareness week, I thought I'd voice out the issues I've been dealing with on this hunt. Being a foreign law grad, and finally being done with my NCA exams, all I can say is that this has been a very taxing period, and perhaps what I'm looking for is some advice to get through these turbulent times. First of all, the lack of career support was something I failed to comprehend before I arrived back in Canada. I understand maybe it's not all that different going to a Canadian law school, but still, there must be some tangible differences. I'm heavily reliant on Indeed at the moment. On top of that, the isolation with which I spent the last year studying for the NCA's was gruelling. I went out for coffees and cold-called lawyers, and they gave me solid application tips and an insight of their journey.
Of course, I couldn't start working until I get my Certificate of Qualification so I'm waiting on that now. But sometimes it felt like a chore hoisting myself to the library to study, with lots of question marks looming over my head: which practice area will I end up? how much will the pay be? will I be liked, and can I cope with my preexisting anxiety?
Those questions still haunt me, but I am making an effort to be easy on myself and figure out what's in my control (refining my cover letters, making sure I'm applying to those firms where I truly want to work at), and disregarding the rest (externals like what my principal's perception of me will be like despite my preparation for an interview / how clueless I'll feel once I have to represent a client in a courtroom). It seems so basic that I shouldn't have to spell it out - and yet, having to deal with your very real emotions clouding your judgment has proven to be a daily hurdle.
I feel very helpless sometimes, as I want to start earning for my family as well, and I will be writing the Bar exams soon, but the idea of being called and still not having a job sounds like the worse thing in the world, even if I sound like I'm exaggerating. Appreciate your help, and I am very sincere about this post.