I moved away from home for university, had a quarter life crisis with a suicide attempt, decided I didn't like my major because I failed one of the required courses so I tried transferring into another program, brother ended up arrested and in prison for a little bit, 4 close family members passed away (2 from overdoses), took about a year to recompose myself and realize the path I wanted to take was the same as always and that I was mainly scared.
Long story short, my mental health and my confidence was shot. I went from being one of the smartest in my school (valedictorian, president of multiple clubs, 97% average), to doing poorly in school. While I realize this might be a common reality shock for some, I wasn't expecting it and I did not handle it very well. Even in the fall of Year 3 I was still trying to re-build myself.
I'd like to think of myself as a very upbeat and happy person and I know I will be able to help so many people as a lawyer, but I'm just scared that my past mistakes will overpower all the accomplishments I've made in the past year (Deans list, president of a department association, working part time, volunteering 10 hours a week, part of 4 different clubs, VP for two of the clubs).